Long time no blog!
Oh man has life been busy! My bouncing baby boy is growing like a weed and I can't believe he is going to be 9 months next week!!!!!!!!! What am I going to do?!?!
So I have not been sleepless lately because of my baby. He has been doing great the past few days. He tends to go to sleep from 8pm to about 4am and then back to bed till about 7 or so. I have been treated so well by him :)
Sleep the last few night has been a little hard. I am having anxiety and Im not sure why. I think it is due to the stress I have experienced the last few months. I am trying to deal with the stress at the time but I guess it caught up with me.
I am working on relationships in my life right now. Some relationships more then other...... I have come to realize that God puts people in our lives for a reason. That reason my just be to show me what I dont want to be. Now that is helpful realizing this but it is hard because sometimes those examples are close family, of which you must have in your life. Now after thinking about the situations I have going on in my life I am torn by two choices. The first choice is to just eliminate those kinds of people from my life. The people who cause more stress then I can handle and push me to this point. The second option is to keep them in my life and continue to strive for a better relationship.
Now the clear answer is to continue to strive for a better relationship. Oh how I wish that were the easy answer! I wish I had the ability to forgive and forget. The lessons we all learn like that are hard to follow through on. This has made many things in my life hard. Clean slates are really never clean are they? It feels like old problems always make their way back into the picture..... or is it simply because the problem was never solved in the first place? Im thinking its that.
Well just so things to think about. Now I must go get my wee one who is waking up.
Restful nights for all :)
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